The fact that Zhou Zishu might doubt him has him startled into movement, a flock of birds on the wind. His own hand clutch back, desperate, white knuckled, mouth twisting in something close to misery.
"I'd always come for you, Ah-Xu. I don't care how far, or how difficult, or how impossible it might be. But that's not what I -." He cuts himself off, teeth clacking. And then, helpless. "What if it's horrible? What if the things that I've been are too awful to look at? I know I did this all wrong in the beginning, but I'm trying now. I've been trying. I just don't want to lose you. Even here, the only thing that's kept me going is knowing I could get back."
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The fact that Zhou Zishu might doubt him has him startled into movement, a flock of birds on the wind. His own hand clutch back, desperate, white knuckled, mouth twisting in something close to misery.
"I'd always come for you, Ah-Xu. I don't care how far, or how difficult, or how impossible it might be. But that's not what I -." He cuts himself off, teeth clacking. And then, helpless. "What if it's horrible? What if the things that I've been are too awful to look at? I know I did this all wrong in the beginning, but I'm trying now. I've been trying. I just don't want to lose you. Even here, the only thing that's kept me going is knowing I could get back."